Am I Naina from Kal Ho Na Ho?

 This was the first time, after my break up that I woke up with a smile. I woke up happy. DD was not the first thought I had. I didn't rush to check my phone for his message. I felt good. I took out my brightest indigo blue kurti and paired it up with a beautiful dupatta. I was about to pair it up with the one he bought me. I decided not to. It just didn't match anymore. It's not like it is not gorgeous. It is still drop dead gorgeous. But something in me had changed. It just did not match with what I wanted right now. Something else matched. I had completely forgotten about this other dupatta I had. And it matched perfectly. 

I woke up like the song - Kuch toh Hua Hai was playing in the background. My Aman, chose to not be with me. He didn't have an illness. He just decided for the both of us. But is AF Rohit? He wants to take me out for an ice cream everyday. At 29, this makes me happy. Just this. Someone wants to see me after a long day at work, just to crack a few jokes with me, that's all that matters. Maybe one day at a time >> forever?! 

It hurts less today. The wounds are healing. I am accepting the changes in my life and I am not going against them. Whoever comes, most welcome, whoever leaves, most welcome too! 

Something weird happened today. The auto that I took in the morning, the GPS showed a longer route than usual. The auto drivers out here usually take the wrong side for shortcuts. But somehow, today, just today, the GPS showed an extra long route. When I was about to reach office, I saw a group of policemen standing at the wrong side road. Not only was god protecting me from reaching late at work, god was also protecting the poor auto driver from incurring a heavy fine. So god's plan is the best I guess, for DD and I. To think that god only wants what is best for me would be selfish. He is also protecting DD's interests. 

I am not angry anymore. I am wearing my favourite coloured clothes and I am grinning from ear to ear. I am not bitter. I am fine. I will be fine! 

Love (less bitter, more chirpy),

Aaliyah

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