If you're good, he will make sure you succeed!

 My husband is fast asleep. I am wide awake. Lying on the couch, scrolling through the reels. I was just watching a Steve Harvey video wherein they show him a clip of a couple that had really helped him in his starting days. He remembered everything and was so grateful to them for all their help. And just like that, I had an epiphany. If you're a good soul, god will make sure that you succeed. Your life goals are his goals. He will make sure that he never lets you down. He will make sure that he gives you way more than you could ever imagine. 

I still remember the day in 2013 when Oxford had rejected me for a Masters. I felt worthless. But then I got into the next best university which gave me my lifelong friends. One of the friends from my Masters introduced me to my husband. I remember back in 2020 when despite a great interview, I was rejected for a very prestigious scholarship. In 2022, a week before my wedding, I got the best scholarship I could ever dream of for my PhD. God plans for me, way better than I can ever plan for myself. And if I stay true to my purpose, stay my own honest, passionate, real self, then he will make sure that I succeed. 

Every evening, when my husband and I sit together in our little drawing room, watching TV, curled up in a warm blanket, surrounded by a million fairylights, I look at him a second longer. I use that second to say thank you to god for blessing me with a wonderful human being like him to love and cherish for the rest of my life. I know he finds it weird when I simply look at him and smile, without saying a word. He doesn't know that it is all the different versions of me over the years, looking at him and just soaking in his beauty. Being grateful to him for choosing me. 

Ending this blog with an affirmation that he (both god and my husband) will not let me fail. Faith is such a peaceful feeling. Knowing that you are always taken care of. I think I will fall asleep with a smile tonight. 

Yours faith-fully,

Aaliyah

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