End of an Era!

 All good things must come to an end. It is important. And just like that, I said my final goodbye to DD. It was the most simple yet heartfelt goodbye. In that moment I realised how we always take the good things around us for granted. He did and so did I. I could see how sad DD was. I felt horrible about it. Completely horrible. But I didn't choose this for us. His actions did. I just respected his wishes. 

Tee told me something beautiful at my 30th birthday. She said that instead of focusing on the Dos that I want in my partner, we should focus on the Don'ts! I don't want a partner who is untrustworthy. I want to be able to sleep peacefully at night cause I know that I am enough for him. That he is sleeping as peacefully knowing that I am solely in love with him. That this is our bubble and it is beautiful!

Why do people realise the value of a person when they are about to lose them! Why does the anxiety kick in then and not before? I take pride in the fact that I always celebrated the person I am with. Always. Now, I am with AG92. I am mentally committed to him. It happened recently. But it is a conscious choice that I want to spend the rest of my life with him. He is good for me. He is good for my heart. He is good for my soul. 

I am going to see him in 11 days. The 11th day will decide our fate. Is he the one for me? Am I the one for him? Is this how the story ends or is this how it begins? 

Love (11 days away),

Aaliyah 

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