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It is a Saturday morning and I am up earlier than usual. My plans today - 1. Do not take a bath 2. Do not change your pajamas 3. Do a little bit of researching about the ongoing water schemes in India ( a part of my job as a Researcher for a larger than life firm) 4. Read a book titled - The One You Cannot Have ( I guess by now you have an idea of where am I heading towards) 5. Watch a movie - Anything Christmassy on Netflix 6. Video call my best friends who are far away from me 7. Cry, Eat cake, cry some more I am sure point number 7 caught your eye. But it's true. I have been looking for love for the past 5 years. Really! And I could not find it. I've been on dating apps, I've met people through matrimonial apps, I fell for someone at my place of work ( totally unethical but I'm only human, cut me some slack), I've met people on flights, I've met people in cabs, I've met people at a friend's wedding. Heck, I've even met people at a funera...

It hit me like a breath of fresh air! I never thought I had it in me, but apparently, I do. I deleted it all, in one go. In all honesty, I have been looking for love for the past 5 years. I am 27 now, so clearly my quest began when I was 22. Apparently, not a smart move for a 22 year old girl, but I was convinced, in my heart, about a happily ever after. I'd seen it in the movies. I'd read the romantic novels. I knew how it was supposed to end or even begin. I was fixated on the idea of a " Happily Ever After". But it's called living in a fool's paradise. Even though for people like us- Ignorance is Bliss , but the reality has it's own way of biting you right in the ass when you least expect it! There is a famous quote that I love- " I looked for it, I couldn't find it, that doesn't mean that it does not exist". And then there's another one- " He is out there somewhere. He is just with all the wrong women". These quotes a...

Have you ever been called " too intense" or " too invested " or " too clingy" or simply " too much" by anyone? Well, then this post is for you ( and for me too). Yesterday I met a friend for a cup of coffee. While I was telling her my story of how often people call me a " too much" person, I was pleasantly surprised that I was not alone. She too has been called a " too much" person on several occasions. So we got to thinking, what is it that guys mean when they call us " too much". Notice how I made it gender specific. This is because in my 27 years of being on this planet, not once has a girl called me " too much". Not once. And somehow, it is so easy for guys to just label us as " too much" and get away with it. After a heart to heart session with her I decided to pen down what guys actually say to us and what are our intentions behind this. No, I am not overthinking. This is what self-actual...

Note to Self: Really read this because you need it right now. Now, clearly, why should anyone read this? I am no spiritual guru who knows the answer. In fact, I am a nobody. Who doesn’t even wish to become a somebody. Because being somebody means something. It means a lot and it can be overwhelming at times. But I was not like this. I was a ball of fire, a Hydrologist carving her name out in the world till one day I was diagnosed with Acute Liver Failure. That day, my life changed. I mean literally. It changed. I am still trying to figure out if it is a good change or a bad change. I am a survivor of a horrible horrible disease but now I am out of it. Remember your first day at school, when you had no clue what was happening around! When you were blankly staring at everyone, hoping to find comfort in someone, anyone. Well, my life has been pretty much like that for the past 5 months. I am not complaining, don’t get me wrong. But it’s just one of those phases when you actu...