My Petrichor Pages

There comes a point in every woman's life, when she stops looking for love. When she finally accepts defeat. When she becomes a bit too comfortable in the blanket of past memories that she sew for herself over the course of time. When she stops pining and whining. When she just accepts her fate for what it is.  So what if every leading character in my story was resorted to a full stop and not an ellipsis. All my full stops did make me happy at one point of time. Actually, scratch that, they made me insanely happy. They gave me something to think about in my 30s. As I sat in my favourite corner of the house and sipped my tea, reminiscing about all the good, the bad and the ugly, I realised that at least I had something to cry about. Which goes to imply that I at least had something going well for me at one point, else why even bother remembering the unimportant stuff. That said, I felt that it's okay to be alone and lonely. I hate it when people say I'm alone but not lonely...

 I came across a quote from the movie Stuck in Love. I actually read it on Instagram today. Got intrigued and so I decided to watch the movie. The quote went like this -  "There are two kinds of people in this world. Hopeless romantics and realists. A realist just sees that face and packs it in every other pretty girl they've ever seen before. The hopeless romantic becomes convinced that God put them on Earth to be with that one person."  I gravitated towards watching this movie today out of all days. Nescafe texted me today. He got married in December last year. I don't know why he texted me, but I guess some invisible force made him do it. His text to me was - " I'm sorry. I don't know how, why, what, but I am. I know it for a fact that I will always wish the best in the world for you. After all, the best deserve the best. I unknowingly did a lot of things wrong, which probably I shouldn't have. I'll always be grateful to fate that I got a chanc...

 My New Year Resolution for 2021 is -  Learn to mind your own business! That's it. Stop checking up on people! Stop worrying about the ones who probably don't even have your number saved in their phones, stop following people on the gram who make your life seem like shit. In short, be okay with not reaching out! Really!  I have always been the kind of person who worries about the people close to me. I am also blessed with a few people who care about me just the same. But not everybody deserves the same kind of love and attention. Especially the ones who never know how to reciprocate it. Imagine, genuinely caring about someone's wellbeing and them not even having the courtesy to reply. Yes, that happens. That happened a couple of times with me in 2020. I won't allow it to happen in 2021.  This year, hopefully, I will become a more hard-hearted version of myself. They say I am much too sensitive. I get affected a bit too easy. Need to be more thick-skinned. While all t...