My Petrichor Pages

 No really! It is! I feel that I would have been just fine without ever experiencing it in the first place.  Come to think of it, what has love actually ever given me except for heartache. Heartache is a constant symptom that arises once you have been infected by love. And who is to say what is love actually? My definition can always be different than yours and yours can be different than hers and so on and so forth.  I am not an expert on love. Far from it. I have been beaten down to the ground cause of it though. Metaphorically, not literally.  Apparently, the love that I offer is not what they want. I look at this like this - my friend has started her own soap making venture. The soaps she makes are really good for the skin but she has a strong stance on not putting perfume in her soaps to make them smell better. That is the stand that she is taking for her brand. So while what she offers is organic and good for the skin, people would still go for something that s...

 The other day a very close friend of mine came to visit us. She came with her lovely family - aunty and uncle. She got married back in 2018 and her mom was extremely excited to share the wedding photos with us. My mom was happy too, until they left and she shared - when would my daughter dress up like a bride? This was a genuine sigh. Not the kinds you do to manipulate people into doing what you want them to. But this came from the heart and it touched mine. Which brings me to the bigger question - Am I afraid of getting married cause of parents' divorce? I won't lie to you but I've seen the fights, the arguments, the tension, the air of negativity, I've hardly seen love. So my expectations in life are pretty low when it comes to getting settled. But see, I used the word "settled". The word itself does not have a very positive ring to it, does it? Settled to me means saying that - this will do for now. Should something as pious as marriage be based on the log...

 I quit my job on 25th September 2020. One of the boldest decisions I took for myself in the longest time. Just like that, I quit it. Actually no, I was going through some shit for the longest time. You see, I come from the development sector (or the social sector as many people would call it), so when I got a chance to work in the corporate sector, I was not too thrilled, but I still picked it up cause it was right there. Plus, it was better money than I made. Since I was barred from going to the field for a year, a desk job did suit my requirements at that time. Little did I know that this job would give me serious issues of doubting my self-worth. So I joined in December last year. As I was getting accustomed to the larger than life corporate world, I realised that I am not 'it'. You know, 'it'! The girl in the pencil skirt and high heels and red lipstick and perfect eye make up and that lovely hair. I was so nervous on my first day that I accidentally entered the me...