My Petrichor Pages

I am writing this in the middle of my day despite being on a deadline because I absolutely need to get it off my chest. I usually use the Pomodoro Technique to work (25 minutes of focused work followed by a 5 minute break). I used this break to go to Facebook and I saw a few friend suggestions there. One of them was of a classmate who was the son of a teacher in my school. That teacher was really fond of me and so she had invited me to her son's birthday. This was back in class 6th I guess. When I excitedly told him that I have been invited by your mom to attend your birthday, he said something that shocks me to this day. He said to me that please do not come to my party since you are not cool enough to attend. My fingers are numb as I type this. Imagine how strong I must have been in that moment to have not cried in front of everyone. But I think this was one of the major scars in my heart as a kid. Another one was the fair kids singling me out because I was dusky, one was my crus...

I recently came across an old video of Ed Sheeran where he said something so profound. He mentioned that Instagram is just a promotional tool and when people share their selfies, it is more of a need for validation. They want to hear people say - " Hey! You look amazing!". I kind of agreed with him.  When I was single, I used to share so many photos. I used to desperately wait for the like of my crush(es) and for a view on my story. So much has changed after being married. I rarely feel the need to upload anything at all apart from beautiful trees and buildings across the UK. There is an easiness that I have developed with time and I am liking this phase. It is not that we don't take photos, we do! But I feel that I want to keep them to myself and not share it with the world.  Back in India, I was always a part of an invisible race and I always seemed to lose. Lose in love. Lose in jobs. Despite giving it my best, it was never enough. But here, I feel fine. I feel good. I...